My Bar Stool Would Fall Over

Sometimes you hear things that just really resonate with you at your core. I think I can count them on one hand:

1). "Be good girls, get good grades, and get through high school without a broken heart." - My dad, my entire life.  These were our guidelines for growing up - and they really worked! The other one was "Nothing good happens after midnight."  - another very true one from dad

2).  "Do what you need to do in order to look back on this situation in 20 years and say, yes, I did the right thing." - My mom and dad, circa 1997

3).  "But WHY do you believe that?" - Ron, one of the first men I dated that taught me more about who I am a person more than any other. It's really when I began to question life and my part in it.

4).  "Just in case you need a sign from God." - a sign in the Pittsburgh airport by Delta's baggage claim. This is one of my favorites - I was interviewing at Heinz and wanted to make sure I was making the right move for my career and personal life.  So, I prayed - "Dear God please give me a sign that I'm on the right track and that Pittsburgh/Heinz is the right place for me".  Well, I landed at the airport and saw this:

 

How appropriate right?!  I knew in that second, that everything would work out because I was meant to be here.  And I haven't looked back since.

So that leads me to current life in 2011, Oprah's final show - "Don't pray to find a partner, pray to be ready when he comes into your life."  Hello, BAM! This one hit me like a ton 'o bricks and really got me thinking.

Am I really ready for forever? My quick answer is yes, but then I got to some introspective thinking...(this happens when I'm not feeling good).

And pardon the comparison, but it's all I can think of - each person is like a bar stool with 3 legs (you have to have all three to keep the stool from falling over) - Spirituality, Physical Appearance, and Career. Am I happy with all 3? Um, no. My bar stool would fall over right now!

Career - awesome. Love where I live, love my friends, love my life that I'm privileged enough to live because of my hard work and opportunities I've been given.

Spirituality - no checkmark here.  I was raised Catholic, but never agreed with all of the aspects of our religion. I  need to figure out what I believe in (other than the basics, I mean, I know I believe in God!) And I know I believe Jesus came already (so sorry, my Jewish friends, I won't be converting). But the rest? I need to explore.

Physical Appearance - no checkmark here either.  I'm a work in progress lol.  Back on the wagon, taking it day by day, good food choice to good food choice, workout to workout.

So today, I started something new, I went and bought a bible - it needed to be 1) and bible and 2) cute so I can carry it around (hey, a girl's gotta have standards, right?!) God totally understands that. And as soon as I'm feeling 100% again, I'm gonna start a consistent workout plan and eating regimen.  Low-fat, Low-carb, here I come.  Rarrr...

I think after figuring these 2 things out, I'll be ready to meet my forever.  Not quite there yet.  But I'm enjoying every second of life and figuring things out as I go. And hey, if I do meet my forever while I'm still a work in progress, I'll just follow Oprah's advice, and pray for the ability to notice and accept him at that time. :)