Patience. I'll still be happy.

I want it all, and I want it now.  

Seriously. Some days I wish I could just fast forward 10 years and be living the life I think I'll be living at that point.

It's not like I'm asking for the world or anything.  Just MY world - you know, a husband, kids, maybe even a dog - the stuff I DON'T have right now, but reaaaaally want.

Don't get me wrong, I have a lot:

• An amazing network of family and friends that love and support me
• A 4-legged little buddy who thinks I'm his world
• A pretty sweet house, that I'm fortunate enough to own
• A great career that allows me to learn more about the business world every day, and affords me the opportunities to do what I love
• Like traveling to new places and experiencing new cultures
• A relationship with the Big G.O.D. that gives me strength and encouragement to live my life to the fullest every single day.

But, I struggle with being patient. I think living in a world of immediate gratification enables my behavior.  And oddly enough, I think me being a super-optimist, enables this too.  

For me, hope turns into impatience. If I work hard enough, pray for it, hope for it, yup, it's possible and it'll happen. My thinking is flawed.

I've been reading the bible - something I've never done in my life until now.  Every night I read just a little bit (okay I slipped for a few nights, but I've been pretty consistent). I've learned I'm learning that God only puts people/things in your path when you're ready for them.  So now, I'll just pray to be ready when the right person does enter my life.

I saw this and it really resonated with me and where I am in my life right now:

  

The grass is always greener - my friends that have families, wish they could just pick up and travel like I do. Or they wish they could simply go out for date night on a whim, like I can. While I stand there in awe of the love in their marriage, or the fact that they have a beautiful child with another one on the way (or two).  I think what it comes down to is that we always want what can't have - which is a horrible way to go through life.

I'm choosing to be happy with my life as it is now.  IF my life changes, IF I meet someone to share it with, IF I get married and have children, then I can live in those moments and be even happier than I am today.

And until then, I'll still be happy. Cuz that's just how I roll.